excerpt from Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood", p.100
“… So I made up my mind I was going to find someone who would love me unconditionally three hundred and sixty-five days a year. I was still in elementary school at that time — fifth or sixth grade — but I made up my mind once and for all.”
“Wow,” I said. “And did your search pay off?”
“That’s the hard part,” said Midori. She watched the rising smoke for a while, thinking. “I guess I’ve been waiting so long I’m looking for perfection. That makes it tough.“
“Waiting for the perfect love?”
“No, even I know better than that. I’m looking for selfishness. Perfect selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortcake. And you stop everything you’re doing and run out and buy it for me. And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortcake out to me. And I say I don’t want it anymore and throw it out the window. That’s what I’m looking for.”
“I’m not sure that has anything to do with love,” I said with some amazement.
“It does,” she said. “You just don’t know it. There are times in a girl’s life when things like that are incredibly important.”
“Things like throwing a strawberry shortcake out the window?”
“Exactly. And when I do it, I want the man to apologize to me. ‘Now I see, Midori. What a fool I’ve been! I should have known that you would lose your desire for strawberry shortcake. I have all the intelligence and sensitivity of a piece of donkey shit. To make it up to you, I’ll go out and buy you something else. What would you like? Chocolate mousse? Cheesecake?’”
“So then what.”
“So then I’d give him all the love he deserves for what he’s done.”
i would have let you if you asked me
Wednesday 20 July 2011
Tuesday 19 July 2011
The Disillusionment of an Aspiring Volunteer
Back from Batam. To care is too creepy.
I was asked to record all patients charts in the electronic medical recorder but ended up dictating all inputs to a senior EMR.
I never realized that there will be a time that I will battle my innate soft speaking voice with the other voices around me.
I now have more respect for teachers especially those who serve during the election. Hi ma!
The past 2-days, I realized I do care for my voice. I begged off several times to rest it.
Despite of it all I still wish to join the next mission but I need it to be more efficient. I will still prefer the same task.
Pick-up line learned from my friend Donna, not applicable. == Doctor, Doctor I am sick -- to a cute Doctor = NADA!
And unbelievable! I learned in this mission that the Muslim Malays hates the Chinese Buddhists. The Buddhists sponsored the Operations Smile Mission for patients in need. The Patients were all Malays. The Malay nurses are just too egoistic to work for the Chinese so they just stood there and did nothing. They just stood there with arms-crossed in their chest, glaring at the person who instructed them. They just stood there and looked at the patient who was sleeping on the floor until a Chinese nurse helped him. Fucking division! Fuck you animosity!
thoughts throughout:
i think i'll go home and mull this over
before i cram it down my throat
*photos are to follow as long as i am able to have my copies.
I was asked to record all patients charts in the electronic medical recorder but ended up dictating all inputs to a senior EMR.
I never realized that there will be a time that I will battle my innate soft speaking voice with the other voices around me.
I now have more respect for teachers especially those who serve during the election. Hi ma!
The past 2-days, I realized I do care for my voice. I begged off several times to rest it.
Despite of it all I still wish to join the next mission but I need it to be more efficient. I will still prefer the same task.
Pick-up line learned from my friend Donna, not applicable. == Doctor, Doctor I am sick -- to a cute Doctor = NADA!
And unbelievable! I learned in this mission that the Muslim Malays hates the Chinese Buddhists. The Buddhists sponsored the Operations Smile Mission for patients in need. The Patients were all Malays. The Malay nurses are just too egoistic to work for the Chinese so they just stood there and did nothing. They just stood there with arms-crossed in their chest, glaring at the person who instructed them. They just stood there and looked at the patient who was sleeping on the floor until a Chinese nurse helped him. Fucking division! Fuck you animosity!
thoughts throughout:
i think i'll go home and mull this over
before i cram it down my throat
*photos are to follow as long as i am able to have my copies.
i would have let you if you asked me
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